hi cassie congratulations on adopting this precious baby. I am a foster parent and just recently my foster baby was returned home. I am heart broken, its been about three weeks and I still cry for her everyday. She was a crack baby as well and I was there for her when she went through all the withdrawls. She was my first foster baby and I was so scared because i did not know anything about crack babies. I remember i would be so angry when i would take her to her visits and her mother would say that the baby looked like a frog (because her eyes seemed to bulge out) but it was part of the drugs. I got her when she was two months old, they took her away from her mother as a newborn but the grandma wasnt taken care of her well either so they put her in foster care. I had her for 16 months so can you imagine, I was this babies"mama". I didn't want her to suffer but CPS would not do it gradually, I spoke to her mom last week for the first time since the removal and she told me that Ruby had cried three days straight waiting for me at the door until her little voice was gone. I was so heart broken. I still cry about that, I didn't want her to suffer not one minute. The system is so messed up. Please pray for me, as i miss her so very much but especially for my Ruby. I don't think that she is in a good place. Her mother had entrusted me with a lot of things and I know that there are drugs in the house where she is staying (Mom's boyfriends house) I am so afraid that Ruby will get into the powdered cocain and consume it. Please please pray and have your church pray for her. My heart wants her here back at what she knew as home but I know God has a plan for her and I just need to trust him. Cassie I may have some clothes for your little one that didn't fit Ruby anymore but where would I send it. If you need to contact me my email address is janieg716@yahoo.com
